i went outside
to dance for my Moon
there came a moment
when i realized ...
there's a whole sky up there
Jivana's Memoirs: 103Our energy was affecting people. In the energy battles we were having on the streets, in the clubs, at our parties, we were having defectors reach out to us. They were being awakened, and it would be our saving grace in our plan to stop Koch.
They would give us confidential information. Some of it was just validating things we had already discovered. Websites that had been pulled down that they could give us access to, conspiracies we were familiar with, but one actually came to join us. His name was Johnson. That’s all he would give us. He showed up at Dr. Rave’s.
He had been wandering the desert in a self made loin cloth all the way from the Great Party to the Bombshelter. He knew the route. He even knew underground passages but he chose to stay on the surface to find himself he said, staying alive only by the water and fruit of the cacti.
He had felt an immense amount of guilt as he was the one that gave
Jivana's Memoirs 108"Ms. Morus, hello"
We were right outside of THEY, the most exclusive club in all of Vagus. All the entrances had been hidden. Our entire journey escorted.
The VIP host wore a suit that looked like it had shrunk on him. I looked down so as not to laugh. The look must be in right now I thought. At least it gave me something to take my mind off of my horrendous airplane ride.
"Hi". She rolled her eyes and looked away.
“Should I give you your regular bottle today?”
“Hmmmm no … I will not be drinking today. Let me see the water list please”.
I couldn’t help but glance over her shoulder.
There was $70K bottle of water on the menu, and of course that’s exactly what she ordered.
“It’s absolutely the best” She said as she turned to me gloating. “Absolutely exquisite the bottle. 24K gold, diamond encrusted".
I looked at the purse and thought about the water. A school co
Jivana's Memoirs 107To get the gear in was quite a feat. It had to be canoed across the resevoir and basically shrink wrapped to make it water proof to get it into the cave. We had someone that worked at an airport that did it for free. We had tested the gear by dumping water over it but we had not known how it would do submerged. There was no way to get into the cave that would be undetected except by coming in the back and scuba diving the gear in. The text from Ken confirmed it survived.
Now, we all just had to wait and hope everything lined up the way we imagined it would be although we knew that things do not always go the way you want them to. Unexpected things always come up. You can’t plan for.
Prisley believed in us for some reason. What exactly and why she was going along with us was still somewhat of a mystery. We were grateful for her participation, but we kept it in our minds that she could turn on us at any moment if she hadn’t turned us in already.
Jivana's Memoirs 106The Big Day came. I stood on the jet way in front of Prisley Morus’s private jet. I had been escorted out of waiting lounge but they would not let me board until she arrived. I knew what kind of plane this was. I used to want one for myself. Now I just looked at the leather which filled me with conflicting thoughts about cows.
I was hot and I was wearing a long black dress. The sun was beating down on us even though it was December. I was in the middle of pulling the fabric of my dress away from my thighs, which was starting to stick to my figure from perspiration, when Prisley’s super stretch limo pulled up. She stepped out with her black floppy sun hat, big round sunglasses, siren red dress, diamond vape pen, shiny alligator stilettos, a tiger fur stole, and somewhat strange purse. It was a large, she could have probably fit a change of clothes in it and an extra pair of shoes. The leather seemed to match the int
Seek EvolutionDon't get lost in the distractions of the world,
there is so much more you can do with your mind.
Dream, focus, manifest.
Jivana's Memoirs 105Once again, I ended up at Prisley's house. I had been invited over to the house but it seemed through her eyes, I was not invited into her room. I stood there in the doorway waiting for her to speak. No longer a forlorn figure, she sat upright, arms crossed, chin down, eyes focused on me, and a long diamond encrusted vape pen framing half of her face. In the dimmed lights surrounding her vanity she finally spoke to me through her mirrored reflection.
"What do you want me to do?" she asked.
"We need you to get us into THEY" I said.
"Why do you need me for that?"
I paused to take in a breath before I responded.
"We need to be discrete upon our arrival so we can serve them these" and then I handed her the papers.
She took a puff of of the sparkling vape pen.
"There's nothing really discrete about showing up with me".
Jivana's Memoirs 104I rubbed the toe of boot across Prisley Morus's giant and obviously custom front door mat as we knocked on her door. Of course there were fences to jump and security guards to secure but ... those were minor things. Standard now for us. Reality livened when the butler answered the door.
I remember having this sense that she knew we were coming, because there she was, standing in the long oblesik shadow of the doorway behind the Butler; waiting. Waiting maybe the way parents do when they have lost a child, secretly hoping their child will come back home to them.
Zephr had taken care of the Butler quickly with a Spock-like pinch on the shoulder. Zoe of course caught him and laid him down on the ground smoothly. He had no idea he would be going down. Protection against intruders was obviously not the Butler's specialty.
She just stood there looking at us coldly. The outside lights shining back at us in the glaze of her eyes. It reminde
A Terminated Omnipotence.I Am Bad
I Am Good
I Am Perfect
I am not bad
I am not good
I am not perfect
I am GOD,
So who am I?
I am just like YOU
And You are just like ME,
We are both the SAME
Can't you see
Everything we do
Everything we create
Is not Individual
It is Unity.
WHY are we here?
WHAT do we have to create?
WHAT is unity?
He, She, They, Us, You and Me.
WHEN do we have to create unity?
WHY you and me?
Because we can
Because we want to
Because this is who we are.
WHO are we?
We are Children.
ImaginationI sat on the floor
as thousands of fish swam by
with shimmering scales and fins.
How am I to deny the freedom of mind,
as they laughed and swam through my head?
I looked out the window
as a dragons head came crashing through
his mouth open wide and sharp narrowed eyes.
Why would I want to deny my freedom of mind,
as he offered me an amazing adventure?
I laid in my bed
as lights and shadows danced
on the walls filled with secrets.
What would the world be like,
If your mind was the ruler?
There would be peace.
UntitledFather, Your love covers me
And washes me anew
You are my strength when I am weak
You are my comfort in my distress
You are the light in my darkness
My heart is always in prayer
And singing praises to You
When my attitude starts to get the best of me
You give a gentle reminder that Your spirit resides in me
In every storm You are my peace
At every sign of trouble You are the one who calms my anxiety
May I never forget to praise You
In both the good times and the bad
You are my living water, and I am ever thirsty for You
You are the bread I eat, and I am ever hungry for You
I ask for wisdom and knowledge
You grant my requests
I am ever growing and learning in You
May You lovingkindness show through me
That I may bring Your truth to others
That their souls may be saved
Use me for Your will
May Your will alone be done in my life
So when I come home to You
You will say, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."
In the precious name of Your Son, Jesus, I pray
FNAF poem (( Idek))Do you remember
The day I died
The day you lured me
And took my life
I wasn't the only one
There was five or six
You stole us from mommy and daddy
I can't remember..
Why did you do this?
We were innocent
We were too young
Now mommy and daddy will search for us always
You are content, as your job is done
You will never wonder
You know where we are
We will return
We always do
Just as you took us from our parents
We'll take life from you, too.
New Hope and loveA girl alone, on the brink of death
Everyone around her sundered her soul
Her hope taken, she surrendered to the reaper
But then he came
A fallen angel, with wings of ebony
Came to her side in her most dire need
He banished the reaper, and gave her a crown
And with the crown came confidence
The people saw the crown gave her strength
And their power over her was broken
Cowardice took over their hearts
And they fled for their very lives
Their fears were not her desire
Her only wish was to not be alone
And the fallen angel vowed
Never to leave her side
A queen and her knight
A PrayerI had it… I really did, lying in bed this morning
The words rolling around in my head… poetry and explanations
Answers to everything in every second
A turning kaleidoscope of colored glass found in every molecule
The universe in a thumbnail
I need to stop and accept… to allow
Every flash of sun on every ripple on every lake
Every drop of dew on every blade of grass in every meadow
Every blink and sigh and thought and step and stumble
Every breeze across every leaf in every forest
Every planet in every galaxy in every universe
Not to put too fine a point on it, is a miracle
A miracle is a single cell and a long day and a smile
A get up, get out and get on with it
So simple and basic and elemental as a laugh
I am close, I can feel it, it is right around the corner
That cheese at the end of the maze…
That carrot. That brass ring. That clarity.
I love the irony of my life in all its bitter-sweet textures
Thank you seems inadequate, but it is all I have
UntitledPlease don't be discouraged.
Don't let yourself get down.
Keep your chin up; because God's got you.
Call him in your time of need.
Praise Him in your storm.
Allow him to guide you safely into His Peaceful harbor.
I will always be praying for you.
I pray his will is done in your life.
I love you, and So does the Lord.
His love abounds infinitely beyond mine, and he holds you tight while cannot.
VeraendertDie Leere ist ewig
und so bin auch ich,
bin Feuer und Asche,
bin Dunkel und Licht.
Doch so ewig ich bin,
in mir wie Glimmer
brennt jenes Wissen,
schmerzt mich auf immer.
Sterblich war ich,
litt und verlor,
bin nun wieder Gott,
doch nicht wie zuvor.
The End is Only a New BeginningI watched as the heavens rearranged,
not taking centuries or eons to right the wrongs – many long overdue,
Rather, within a few human breaths, I saw it all return to one,
The moment, though not lost on me,
I knew would go unnoticed by the vast majority .
Only those who rode the star streams in the days of chaos,
would know and understand the difference in existence,
And though most people would live the rest of their lives happier,
Never knowing why, and not of the mind to ponder such things,
I was aware of the implications – subtle and obvious,
The differences that would come to pass,
and if the alterations of our existence,
were to equal the pace of heaven's order,
It would all happen in the blink of an eye -
Nearly too fast to be seen, but too great not to be felt.